lonley skys above

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-07-28T14:41:00

2005-07-28T18:43:09Z

well so i seee people are starting you this again, i probably wont. i still read peoples tho. but the life is pretty boring !!

well it is the summer, and let me tell you alot of things have changed since last summer. i have lost some of the people that mean alot of to me, and gained some new friends too. haha. but i cant wait till next summer when schen comes down its going to be a partyyy haha.

well idk some of my friends still go on this thing, and i just want to say thank you for everything. thank you for listening to me complain and jsut not being embarrased when i act really stupid which is 95% of the time. so i just want to say thank you for everything

&& to the friends i have lost over the past school year i would just like to say thank you for everything you taught me threwout the freindship. i will miss a few of you very much. && without having you guys as friends i dont think i would be the person i am today so i just want to say thank you for that.

well thats the end of that i think lol..

well i go to wildwood in 2 days it should be fun. alot of people are going.

but its good cuz i neeed to get out of clifton and away from the drama haha. hopefully no drama down in wildwood

so yea and then theres nothing else really i do this summer. i want to go to warp tour, but i dont know if im going yet, i want to but idk probably wont.

so yea my entry is pretty boring.

BLAH

2005-04-19T15:35:14Z

wow so yea im bored out of my MIND. lol - im in 5th period, and my computer teacher is absent, so we are just doing whatever we would like to do! which is pretty boring. I should be working on my powerpoint presentation, but im to lazy so ill work on it tomorrow.

hmm so i did pretty well on my report card, dont remember exactly what i got, so here are the grades i do remember::

english 93
bio 93
dr. ed 90
computers 100
math 77
french 71
social studies 91

so yea i need to bring up my FRENCH GRADE. i cant believe i got that, i droped 17 points in that class :[ . last marking period i had a 88. oo well and math i have to do better too. i HATE geometry.

So anyway. yesterday i found out i have ZERO period now. YAY. so i have honors history as my zero period class. hopes someones in it with me :]

blah blah blah

so yea saturday i went to NEW YORK CITY. i love the city. i just randomly walked around, and walked around central park, which was amazing. There were soo many people. I wish my mom would of let me brough gia(my dog) it would of been 10x better lol. but yea alot of people were walking dogs, or just sitting down and having a picnic.
So yes new york was fun, did alot of walking and should my mom how to use the subway. She was all nervous when we got on the subway because she didnt want to get lost. Whoa she amazes me sometimes lol. I wanna go back to NYC during spring break, but i doubt that will happen :/ i actually wanna go to the zoo in central park, or go to the bronx zoo. idk

so yea sorry for the long entry. just a little bored, and well im never write in this thing anymore. i guess im just not on the computer as much anymore. PLUS i rather be OUTSIDE and enjoying the weather. THE WEATHER IS AMAZING. i lvoe it !!!

well i guess ill gooo now byeeeeeeee <33

p.s. -- things in my life seem to be changing, i found out that there are nice people out there in the world. but i hope this sweet sixteen im going to during spring break, turns out better then other ones i went too. :/

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-04-13T08:55:00

2005-04-13T15:56:08Z

so boorreedd and doontt feell well . o what joy lol

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-04-11T11:41:00

2005-04-11T15:42:46Z

hey im in computer class right now

i got a 100 for the marking period, and i got a 91 for social studies for the marking period. but i did bad in french i got a 71.

i gotta do better in french. i dont want the report cards to come out !!! lol - so yea we had a firedrill cuz someone pulled hte firealarm and think so now this period is 5 minutes longer...

um yea this weekend i made my confirmation . so no more ccd for me- but i guess im happy i did it- so now i dont have to really worrie about it later on in my life. and saturday night was amanda's party which was really fun. !!

welll im going to go now byeeee <3

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-04-04T11:05:00

2005-04-04T15:11:15Z

so yes, im so tired- we lost a hour of sleep thanks to daylight savings, or something like that- too tired to remember.

hmmm lets see whats i did this weekend:
- had to take care of my mom yesterday cuz she was sick :[
+/- IT RAINED !! i love running and just standing in the rain, but it sucked that it raines all weekend. idk i love rain but then again i hate it sometimes.
+ went shopping. I got my dress for my confirmation :]
+/- fixed my computer !! but its still a little messed up so i have more fixing to do :[
- ran out of books to read. need to take a trip to barnes and noble.

so yea im working on my presentation of CALIFORNIA. i was originally going to to my presentation on ITALY or EUROPE but so many people are picking them, so i just decided on CALI since i want to move there some day! i also want to move to ITALY, and i want to visit so many other people.

*the pope died this weekend, as everyone knows already. he did alot of great things in his lifetime.

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-04-01T11:25:00

2005-04-01T16:44:27Z

today is APRIL 1, 2005 --> so happy fools day

lets see today has been okay..i found out today i passed my math quizz with an 84 :] !! YAY goo me, considering i have like failed almost every quizz, im pretty happy. my bio teacher was absent, and now my comp. teacher is absent. his financee had to have surgery, so thats why he wasnt here yesterday and thats why hes not here today.

so yea umm im not really running in track anymore-- my kneee hurts really bad/ankle hurt really bad too, i just dont want to tell anyone because i dont want them to think i am a baby or something. So now im throwing. i have always wanted to try throwing. and i REALLY like it- i might not be as good as other people since i just started. but i like to throw and im having fun and thats all that matters to me :]

well yes- so im still on my search for happiness, i think it will be a while till i find it :[ . but oo well, im starting to get happier, but people just keep on bringing me down, and the worst part is, its the people that are suppose to love me, and want whats best for me, but all they want is whats best for themselves and what they want for me, so thats not really helping the situtation. but oh well i guess i just have to deal with it.

and everything in my life is starting to go downhill, and i dont know how to fix it!! First im doing pretty horrible in french and im gettin alittle better in math; but still not as goo as i think i can do. I have no self-confidence, and I HAVE NO FAITH IN MYSELF. i just think im the ugliest, worthlest, and stupidiest person. It also sucks that i have no friends that i can really talk to. I know that something stupid to say, since i do have freinds. BUt i dont have that one person or a few people, who i can talk to about EVERYTHING. i mean the person i did had as moved. It is just not the same anymore- i mean she is still my BEST FREIND and all, she gets most of the things im going through. BUT I WISH I COULD FIND SOMEONE HERE IN CLIFTON that i can talk to, and will understand me. i just simply dont have a best friend which might be part of the whole problem, but oh ive been doing fine since august when i lost my bestest friend, someone i could count on, and it stil hurst but im doing okay now, i relized i dont really need that person, but ~~secretly i do~~ but i dont think i could ever tell the person that because the person will just laugh in my face. Because from what i understand, the person didnt want to be my friend for a reason that i cannot do anything about, and if the person doesnt like the fact, that i can never be what the person, wants to be, or be like everyone else. then its not my fault.Im just not like everyone else. which is a bad thing but also a good thing. i wish my mom would just listen to me, and let me move- but thats never going to happen. and im still getting over schenley moving. i mean we only met last year- but she was the one person that would listen to all my bullshit, and didnt care or get embarrased if i did something extremley stupid. because thats who i am. im an embarrasement to everyone but o well, i like saying stupid shit, and doing stupid things. I LOVE TO HAVE AN ADVENTURE, AND I LOVE THAT I DONT REALLY CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME. which people have to admit is true- since i dont wear, the prettiest cloths, and when i come to school it looks like i just rolled out of bed. but u know what thats who i am, I WANT SOMEONE TO LIKE ME FOR ME, NOT FOR HOW PRETTY I AM OR BECAUSE I WEAR THE SAME CLOTHS. but whatever everyone these days pre-judge people by how they dress, or speak, or look. but u know what i wont do that anymore, im going to give people chances.

i know noone reads this and this is such a LONG entry but i guess i had to get that off my chest, even if noones reads it, and the person i want to tell this all too will never see it. I dont care, as long as i dont have to hold it inside any longer, cuz it was killing me but i guess thats stupid to say.

o well im going to go -- bye

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-03-24T09:12:00

2005-03-24T14:13:29Z

heyy well today was a delayed opening. my bus never came to get us, so yea now im home, becuz i wasnt going to walk my ass to school lol -- so im happy about that :]

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-03-11T11:46:00

2005-03-11T16:50:49Z

hey, its finally friday well im in 5th period right now, heres a recap of what has happened so far: +first period- which is math class, um we went to C307 to do some thing on the computer. We had to make polygons, and find the length of the sides, there angles and all this other shit, it was rather gay, but better then doing actual work !! +second period- hm history class, mr. henry wasnt that boring today. We were talking about how much alcohol, the men use to drink in like 1840. and wow it was alot of alcohol!! NO HOMEWORK, which is always good. and he told us that if we go to the play this weekend, we get extra credit i thikn its 10 points !! +third period- mr.cap wasnt here, and there was no sub. so we just relaxed in the room. But then the north, and east wing vps came, to get someone and noticed there wasnt a teacher, so they watched our class until a sub came, and that was like 10 minutes before the bell rang, so whats the difference. +fourth period- umm biology. mr. niglio wasnt here on a day i actually remember to do my current events, o well i will hand them in on monday. So yea we were in the auditorum. now im in computer class. just finished my power point presentation. I did it on the oc, yea it was an easy project to do. +so yea after school today i have practice, hopfully my ankle wont hurt to bad, and i can run !! then after i have to come back to see the trainer, because idk trainer ladoain (i think thats how u spell her name)yold me i have to start therapy today or something, because my ankle is still bothering me. and then after that i have parisis. soo yea i wont get home till like 8:30 tonight i think oo what fun. +then one day this weekend, prbably sunday im gunna go see the school play, so i can get my extra credit points for HISTORY, and for FRENCH. so im going to go now.. bye :]

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-03-08T19:09:00

2005-03-09T00:11:30Z

well hello there ..

today was a pretty interesting day. school was pretty easy-mr. henry wasnt here. so that was good. then it started to snow like 3rd period. gott pretty bad, so yea it took like 45 for my bus to bring ud home cuz there was sooo mcuh traffic. so yea then there was no afterschool activities. i wish this would of happened over night tho so we would have no school

well im gunan go bye

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-03-05T16:59:00

2005-03-05T22:03:52Z

heyyyy ..

friday[yesterday] .. delayed opening, then came to school and had to wait in the auditorum until the juniors were done testing. then went to first period where we did nothing. school was okay i guesss--pretty boring though, only one teacher absent[my french teacher]. after schoool i came home and just relaxed. then went to see the pacifer[sp?] with laurel, sarah and monica. me and laurel kept on laughinh. then came home and went to sleep.

saturday[today] .. had my last saturday :] .. im suppose to have four but since i have been good they took my fourth one away. SO HAPPY those things are soo boring, but oo well. then came home at 12:00 and at lunch, and just relaxed. and not im updating you.

soo yea thats what i have done soo far lol. monday = half a day<33 because we have to make up testing. soo yea one less day of having homework :]. well im going to goo noww byee

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-02-28T11:36:00

2005-02-28T16:42:54Z

hey im in computer class, and i just finished my bulliten project, and im still working on my power point presentation :[

soo yea my week off was pretty good. got the sleep that i needed !! and i finally got to redo my room. I got a new bed, and they shelving system thing. its really nice !! now all i have to do is paint. dont know what thats going to happen tho :/

so yea we are suppose to have a snow storm tomorrow 6-12. hope it happens !! but if we have school then that starts HSPAs. wow do i hate standardized testing!!

soo yea im going to go now. byeeee, wow my entries are boring

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-02-16T11:18:00

2005-02-16T16:26:44Z

heyy everyone..

tuesday: school was okay i guess. i was in a good mooood all day. then after school we had a basketball game @ kennedy. vasristy lost. but jv won i did pretty good in the game got 4 pionts, and then got hurt. so yea i couldnt play the rest of the game. i have a minor sprain. nuttin too big but it hurts soo bad when i walk up and down the stairs, or even when i just try to make a circular motion.

wensday: soo yea im in computer class. i finished my acronym thingy. hope i spelt that right. my ankle is very soar. i have to go see trainer tom after school to see if i can practice or not. it is still a liddle swelled alittle. but its all good

well i have to go finish my powerpoint presentation.

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-02-14T11:21:00

2005-02-14T16:25:37Z

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE

so yea im in 5th period. my day has been pretty good, been in a very good mood, which is amazing lol !! sooo...

saturday - i had my saturday detention in the morning, so i read a book the whole time. Im starting to enjoy reading which i guess im pretty happy about. then i came home and went to the dentist, i chiped a filling so i had to get that fixed, it hurt :x. lol then afterwards i went with my aunt to see hide and seek it wasnt that scary, but i guess it was a goood movie. i love scary movies <33

sunday - hmm had church, then confirmation class. We packed all our stuff for the battered women project we are doing. We had alot of stuff, which is good. did u know on valentines , alot of women get abused by there boyfriends well i forgot the percetnage and stuff, but i find that fact very amazing !! then after confirmation, i went to my brother's apartment. His girlfriend wanted to have dinner with me and my mom. So yea it was cool. the dinner was delicious, sorry i cant spell. but yea was pretty cool.

today - its valentines day . as usaul i dont have a valentine lol but i really dont care, because to me you valentines day is pointless becuase u should tell someone how much u love htem every day of the year, not just on one day. But hey its still a cool holiday :]

well my teacher is absent so we have to do a current event which i havent started yet. oo and its SC yayay lol .. well im going to go now byee

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-02-11T21:53:00

2005-02-12T02:56:27Z

heyyy

tonight was soo much fun. i went to ashley gagnon's sweet sixteen. Wow did i have fun!! it was crazy i loved it. I needed that i got to hang out iwth people that i havent seen in soo long !! Her party was @ the crossroads cafe. it was a good place, very relaxed enviroment which was coool :]

well tomorrow i have ~~detention~~ wow is that going to suck some major ass. oo well i will just do my homework :]

well im going tooo goooo

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-02-09T07:15:00

2005-02-09T12:27:27Z

hey everyone ..
lets seee;

monday- school was okay i guess. We got report cards. They were pretty good. then had basketball practice. Another boring day :[

tuesday- school was pretttyyy goood. Didnt feel that well today, but i think its from waking up early every morning :/. Then after school i had a game. We won, so did freshman, and so did VARSITY. im very happy they are winning games now lol.

today- well im in the library looking for pictures for soemthing, adn then i got math :/ i hate math, especially when its first period. Well atleast Mr. Hirsch isnt here again today :].

marking period grades(report card):

math - 78, and on my midterm i got a 70
social studeies- 88, and on my midterm i got a 87
biology-94, and on the midterm i got a 92 i think
french- 88, and on the midterm i got a 81
computers- 98, and on the midterm 94
english- 90, and on the midterm 90

so yea i pretty happy with my report card except for math. but oo well

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-30T17:15:00

2005-01-30T22:19:00Z

hello everyone :]

friday - school was okay, came to school late tho. I came to school during 3rd period. felt good to sleep late :]. Then after school, had basketball practice. After basketball, i went to the hockey game with mare and gianna. Clifton won ! after the hockey game we went to mares house. that was a fun night.

saturday - had basketball practice in the morning, then got my hair cut. Then my brother came home and we went out to eat, and then came home, and that was the end of my day.

today - had confirmation class, then had to clean my room, now im just relaxing.

wow my weekends are boring lol. but thats okay :] . man i dont want to go to school tomorrow :[

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-27T11:56:00

2005-01-27T17:02:10Z

hey well im in computer class :] .
today we have a game against paramus catholic, so yea that should be fun !! there school is amazing lol ..
track starts soooon cant wait !! i cant wait to run, i wish i did winter track instead of basketball :/ .. but hey whatever dont really care. hmmm so we are doing powerpoint presentations, and i finished mine so now i have nothing to doo .. yea mr. henry let us watch the assembly with the freshman so i got to miss 3rd period, and some of bio :] that made me veryyy happpyyy

well im going to go now .. bye :]

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-24T12:07:00

2005-01-24T17:17:08Z

heyy .. well im in my computer class. this morning i was standing outside on my bus stop for like a halfanhour.. i was soooo cold, and then i was late to school but i didnt have to get a late slip since it was my buses fault. There were soooo many people waiting infront of the atendence office. wow there was a long ass line lol..

so yea then 2nd period i got transfered out of my social studies class. wow does that suck!! its the middle of the year and i have to leave :[ im going to miss gagnon and jess .. so yea im in mr.henrys class now. HAve no where to sit :[ but yea i have homework tonight, and i was in the class like what 2 seconds, so yea i have to ask someone for the homework lol.

i got some of my midterm and marking period grades.

Bio - midterm : 94 .. dont know my mp grade yet
Computers - midterm: 92 .. marking peroid: 98
Social Studies - midterm: 87 .. marking period: 88

so yea pretty goood so far, pretty happy about my grades.. :]
Yea the lights just went out in my class room. WOW is our school ghetto, we def. should have had noo school .. so yea thats cool

well im going to go know .. bye <3

edit
so yea remeber how i said the lights went off in my computer class. well the whole north wing and l-wing thing had no power and no heat so we got out of school early. we got out at 1:30 .. wow was i happy about this. so if they cant get the power back then we might not have school tomorrow. but i bet we will still have school, cuz this just shows that we shouldnt of had school todya and we did.

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-20T07:15:00

2005-01-20T12:22:34Z

heyy well its 7:15 in the morning, and im sitting in the media center bored as hellll !! so yea, MIDTERMS sucks soooo bad .. yesterday i had computers which i think i got a 92 on the midterm, and i also had english which was also easy :]]
and today i have gym and french. french is going to be sooooo hard :[ lol but ooo well ill probably fail.
so anywho today i also have a game @ ridgewood. hopefully we win !! jv is doing pretty goood this season which is good. but varsity really needs to win!! lol

well im going to go now byeee . wow i think im going to stop updating soo yea

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-18T20:28:00

2005-01-19T01:34:32Z

heyy, well i havent updated in a while.

today was the first day of mid-terms. i had geometry and biology today . wow was bio easy but geometry wasnt so easy .. i had no idea what was going on during that mid-term lol. so yea but i hope i still passed it. i think i got higher then like an 85 on my biology test :]
so yea tomorrow i have computers, and english yeah both easy classes :] so im not tooo worried. but thursday is going to be hard cuz i have gymwhich will be easy but then i have french which i going to be extremly hard for me, considering i suck at speaking french :[ lol oo well as long as i pass, im happy lol.

so the basketball team played eastside today. the JV team lost :/ but we left before varsity played,so i hope they win, or atleast dont loose to bad !!

well im going to attempt to study .. cya on the flipside

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-12T11:37:00

2005-01-12T16:58:37Z

hey im in computer class, and i have no work ot make up so i decided to take some quizzes since im soo bored lol ..yea iom really bored and some of these quizzes are a tade strange but i just picked any random quizz lol :]

You scored as Loner.

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Loner

81%

Punk/Rebel

44%

Ghetto gangsta

44%

Goth

38%

Stoner

31%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

31%

Drama nerd

19%

Geek

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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You scored as Chandler. You're Chandler. The sarcastic commitment phobe. Could you BE any funnier.

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Chandler

90%

Monica

55%

Joey

35%

Rachel

25%

Phoebe

25%

Ross

Which Friend are you?
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You scored as An AberHollisterAE Gay or Fratmo. Congratulations!! You are a cookie cutter homo. You might look good, but you also look like everyone else that shops in that store. Still very cute, not very original.

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An AberHollisterAE Gay or Fratmo

100%

A Jock

50%

Normal, Boring and Gay

40%

A MetroHomoSexual

30%

A Closet Case

30%

What Kind of Gay Man Are You?
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You scored as Jimmy. You are somewhat of an endearing clown. You are likeable but not well respected because you sacrifice internal skill development (personal competence) in being too externally preoccupied and people pleasing. You will go farther by pursuing and developing internal interests than being preoccupied with keeping people happy.

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Jimmy

100%

Sandy

83%

Luke

72%

Seth

67%

Oliver

67%

Summer

67%

Anna

61%

Julie

50%

Marissa

44%

Ryan

44%

Caleb

39%

Hailey

33%

Kirsten

17%

What OC character are you?
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adam brody is very hottt :] and the OC is an amazing show

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-12T11:32:00

2005-01-12T16:38:27Z

You scored as Loner.

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Loner

81%

Punk/Rebel

44%

Ghetto gangsta

44%

Goth

38%

Stoner

31%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

31%

Drama nerd

19%

Geek

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my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-10T11:37:00

2005-01-10T16:43:40Z

heyy well havent updated in a while .. yea i have been grounded, which has sucked but ya. So after mid-terms i am gettin transferred out of my social studeis class i think. So yea that should be an adventure. im going to be in a whole new class right in the middle of the year :[ this sucks .!! i wish i didnt have to get out !!

soo yea mid-terms are going ot suck cuz i do not understand MATH at all !! so that will be fun. then im still not scheduled for next year :x and if i dont get zero period im going to be soo pissed. im not staying in this school for 8 periods lol !! i just wont :] .. so yea anywho im borrreeedddd im going to go. yea im in computer classs adn finished all my work :]

peace out .. yea

hmm i wonder what time the bell rings ?!

my_last_dreamer @ 2005-01-01T14:47:00

2005-01-01T22:50:54Z

school starts in 2 days ..

wow this week went by pretty fast. lol didnt really do that much had basketball everyday, which was fun, but also kinda tiring becuz practice was at like 9:00 in the morning, too early lol..
soo yea hmmm its january 1st 2005. i hope this year is a goood one !! lol .. so yea my life is pretty boring becuz i dont really remember anything that has happened. soo yea thats fun :]
hmmmmmmmmmmm im listening to my ipod right now, the song i am listening to is ohio is for lovers, by hawthorne heights wow i love that song lol ..

well im going to go now, guess ill update again when school starts :]

my_last_dreamer @ 2004-12-31T19:31:00

2005-01-01T00:32:09Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!